Although these men had long succumbed to AIDS, I enjoyed their bodies and their performances, while feeling a tinge of guilt at their demise. This trio represented the continuum of my sexual hunger. Summer came stifling and claustrophobic, and I was jerking off to Richard Locke, Fred Halsted, and Casey Donovan. So, I courted resentment, turned my smile upside-down, and exited shallow conversations before the slightest rejection. ![]() I didn't know the rules and I didn't swagger with narcissistic indifference, because I approached my community with honesty-a rookie mistake. It lured me with the promise to be wooed by Friends of Dorothy so, I found my voice, smiled as honestly as I could, and advertised my interests to every man who set off my gaydar. The city had shed its cowtown isolation by wooing transplants with job opportunities and lower taxes. I closed a 21-year military career on March 1997 I came out to myself (To do so while in the military was still a pension killer) and I went back to my childhood city of Houston. I couldn't deny the story any longer, as it insisted. ![]() ![]() Some of it is true, some of it is embellished with slivers of truth. I avoided writing this story for years, at first, out of sheer embarrassment.
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